Is painting important to me?

Is painting important to me?

I think yes. I think by self-analysis, one can get the answers that have been there all along. My looking at the whole of myself and then by thinking about my art, I can now understand how I eventually started to paint. Deep inside I can understand this logic. There was something wanting to come out. What I remarked was that there was a chronological sequence of events and turning to this technique was like completing a full circle.

I feel my art is turning itself into a festive celebration. There are times I even find it to be interlinked with spirituality too; as if my making experience has become close to a kind of meditation.

I WANT TO UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER…

I also feel a sense of accomplishment by looking at my works. My work also feel meaningful to me.

However, I also feel in control of my decision. I feel that I can move on and recreate my set of rules anytime I want to.

MY SET OF RULES:

I want to think on this; this is only the foundation of myself as an artist. I always wanted to remain versatile in my art. Was this why I was always resetting my set of rules?

I do not think being versatile is the answer. Because everything takes on its own time to develop and mature. I should also try not to be ambitious. Thinking too much can also be pointless, stressing and hence harmful.

This “why?” issue is also interesting; however I deeply feel that some things are better not explained about… I can understand why some artists as Cindy Sherman for example most of the time do not give explanations about her works.